Lord, Why Did You Make Me This Way?

Before we get into this conversation I want to put us on the same wave link. First I want to acknowledge a similar title that I am familiar with called, Lord, Why Did You Make Me Black. That was a great poem that may have inspired my essay title, but my subject matter covers a wider swatch of thought. We must also acknowledge that we were all made by the same Lord regardless to how we believe, worship, or serve Him. If you do not believe in a Divine Creator this conversation my not be of interest to you, and that’s okay. Now that I have cleared the runway of people who have no interest in the Lord God period, we can have this talk.

I know I shouldn’t think this way but there are times when I question why the Lord made me this way and put me in the venue of life. I wonder what it would have been like if I were white and not black. I wonder what it would have been like if I were black but still in the continent of Africa where there was still idol worshipping as the native practice. I wonder what it would have been like if I were a Pharisee born during the times when Christ was on the earth and actually participated in His crucifixion… God forbid!!!

Aren’t you glad you are not God and don’t have to make these kinds of decisions? Before I knew more about the Lord I wondered about such things. It didn’t make sense to me the inequities of life. Why couldn’t things be equal, just, fair, and reflect the character and demeanor of the Creator? Using my human, carnal, and mortal logic… it seems logical that God would make us in a way that reflects Him. In fact, the Bible tells us in the first book, the book of Genesis, that God made us in His image and His likeness to be like Him. So therefore, I don’t appear to be far off in my question wondering why things in life do not adequately appear to reflect the image and likeness of God. Does anyone else besides me think of such things? Perhaps I am a bit whacky!

I once told one of my Bible Study members that I no longer liked me. I am sinful, imperfect, can be judgmental, jealous, covetous, envious, at times mean-spirited, and a filthy sinner according to what God desires of His children. I heard the apostle Paul call himself a filthy rag. If a man who wrote at least thirteen books of our New Testament would consider himself a filthy rag then I would have to place myself at least a hundred phantoms below that. So back to my question, “Why did you make me this way dear Lord?”

It’s a good thing that I have read and studied the bible for a number of years now because I am no longer as naïve as I once was. There are things you find out about God and about yourself when you read His instruction book about us. Yes God said that He made us in His image and likeness, but He also said that we all fall short of what He requires. That is a simple description of a sinner, which means to fall short of the mark that God set for us. Apparently, every one of us is a sinner. In that case, perhaps I am not quite as bad as I thought I was or either we are all worse than I originally thought. I guess misery does love company. But does it give me comfort knowing we are all bad, evil, and sinners? NO!

One additional thing I found out in my studies is that we are all individual members of God’s body and were created to serve different purposes and functions. So I am supposed to be different from others. I have a unique set of skills, talents, and abilities by design. I also found out that once we agree with God about His choices then He reveals to us the special gifts that He placed in us for service to each other. I used to think my raw talents were a gift from God for me to use as I wished. Since I learned how to play and write music I thought that was my talent to use as I pleased. Later I found out there was a difference between a spiritual gift and a human talent. They could be not even on the same page. A spiritual gift has to be something that comes directly from God to be used for the body of God. A talent is just something you have the ability to do but it doesn’t necessarily have to be used for the body of God.

As a professional musician with a degree in music, I learned how to do a few things with my talents. Although I am not proud of it, I had an account to write music for the porno industry. Instead of using a human talent for God, I did the opposite. Oh, the things we do for the love of money. This takes me back to being a filthy rag in the eyes of God and in my own eyes as well now that God has opened my spiritual eyes so I can see such things. Thankfully I let go of such things and try not to sin on purpose but still, I fall short of the mark.

Think about this! God made everything and put it in its place to serve as He wills it to serve. That seems rather odd because if He made all people and quite a few are really bad people, then what went wrong? Surely God did not make a mistake. Surely God being omnipotent knew these people would eventually do these bad things, then why didn’t He unmake them before they became corrupted? There I go again trying to figure out the mind of God. He did tell us that His thoughts were not like our thoughts nor are His ways like ours in the book of Isaiah 55: 8-9. Now that is another reason why we really should get to know our instruction book better. I have just proved how ignorant I was before learning these things and if I had not been somehow drawn to the Bible or had someone to teach me about the word, I would still be an ignorant fool. Don’t all y’all agree with me at once!

So let’s keep this one short and sweet. God made me the way He wanted me to be made for a specific purpose. He also gave me free will that gave me the ability to go against His divine will. Looks like He put a few guard rails in my pathway because had it not been for something He did I would still be running out in the darkness of sin and evil with no clue that I was doing so. Aren’t you glad, exceedingly happy, gleeful, jovial, joyous, almost bursting out of your skin that God loved you before you even knew Him? I know I don’t speak for everyone alike but I did ask those who do not accept the Lord God to leave the room if they did not wish to hear about such things. If you are my brother and sister in Christ perhaps you will agree with me. You too are a sinner but saved by the grace of God. Aren’t y’all glad that God didn’t put people like me in charge of the world below… Am I the only one that thinks of things such as this?

To almighty God be the glory… Selah    

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  1. אני יותר מאושר לחשוף אתר זה. אני רוצה להודות לך על שלך זמן על זה נפלא לקרוא!! אני בהחלט אהבתי כל קצת זה ואני יש לך ספר מסומן לבדוק חדש מידע על שלך בלוג.

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